Thinking a bit too much...

Any one, who knows me,
knows my love and compassion for helpless things.

Just when you think you have seen it all, well, sure enough, life
throws in a "zinger".  When in the animal rescue circuit, you see so
much in the eyes of these beautiful creatures.  You see their
happiness, their anticipation, and their love. But you can also
see the pain, hurt, and confusion too. There are times when the
whine of a dog left behind in a shelter, or a cat in pain, due
to ill treatment, rings and reverberates through ones very being.
I sometimes walk away wondering how the hell can people do that
to animals, abandon them ike they do.

Then, when in quite prayer or contemplation, it dawns on me,
how people treat other people! How China treats their populous,
how the US treats it's poor,(New Orleans for example), how bosses
treat their subordinates and how the children or our elderly, are
commodities to be tossed away, much like our animals at times.   
Gee, where the &*^% have I been? 

If people can hurt each other for the sake of money, ignorance,
misplaced loyalty, conquest, or just because they can, then why
should I expect anything else?  If people are ripping each other
off, hurting each other, hurting children or elderly, then the
animals hardly have a chance.

So why do I keep prodding and drudging on?  

Perhaps a masochist? NO.
I will talk later about my "cat of 9 tails" ahhh the memories, sigh!)

Perhaps an idealist? MMMMM..Perhaps.

Actually, it is my "FAITH". I once heard and had been taught that "FAITH"
is a gift.  It never really sunk in till lately. I never realized what
a great gift it really was. It is what gets' me up some mornings, gets
me going to continue to make right was is so wrong that I see, and it
is the very thing that gives me strength to stand up, VOICE and say
what is only fair, as I see it.

My faith helps keep me in check to not be so dang judgmental. It is
my faith that helps me forgive the unforgivable, to know there is a
bigger hand at work, when people act like asses, and the courts protect
the criminal act, more that setting things right. It is my faith that
helps me have the patience when others judge me, and hurt me. It is
faith, when a love has gone bad, or when I witness atrocities, no one
should witness.  It is my faith, which helps me through the dark times,
when I just don't understand.

So my faith kicks in, to help just 1 little life and make an animal's
existence a tad bit better, or ensure an old dog or cat dying, knows
it is loved and feels love before it dies. (One day I hope to expand
that to larger animals and horses.) THAT is what my faith enables in me,
so that I can keep on giving.

I had lost a beautiful, beloved pet, which died of cancer, but it was
my faith that told me it was for a reason, and his job was done. Little
did I know that latter the lessons taught to me from my beloved pet,
would be so very valuable in what my future had in store for me.

My faith is what helped me a few months after I had lost my beloved pet,
with my sister who was loosing her battle with cancer. 

My faith and my past experience, helped me look into my sister's eyes,
while my spiritual  sister was on her death bed suffering from brain cancer,
and tell her happily how special  she was, and how I WILL see her again. 
I knew in my heart I would be with her either here or after.

I was able let her know it was OK to go on. Yes, it ripped me in half,
but my faith walked me through.

So it is my FAITH, that gives me hope that making 1 difference will
continue to spread, ripple through this life and eventually, I will
understand there is a reason that we are all on this earth sucking air.

Now I do not want to get completely negative here. But seriously, if
it was not for the animal rescue I do, I would not have met the beautiful,
compassionate people I have.  I would have lost the love I have in my
heart, and would have turned so very, very cold.

So believe me, I am thankful for my FAITH, for the animals and the earth
I live in. I do my best to ensure I have a smaller and smaller "footprint" on
this earth so that it will continue to strive for our beautiful creation and
the creatures on it. YEP, including us.

So guess now I know why my friends and loved ones say I think too much!!

Keep the FAITH,
White-Tiger 4 God.

3 front personal war

My job, my job, my freakin' job. I just told my, (not sure what to call him), that I cannot have a war going on, on 3 fronts. Professionally and Personally and Spiritually. Now for the Professional one, I just want to hurt the bitch in charge, and the director that is trying to destroy me. Literally, I am looking at a major lawsuit against a large, very large state entity. I know I may not win, but hell, I have nothing more to lose. They are doing studies to try and find out how to decrease work violence!!!!! Well, I could have saved them some money, just treat people like people. I have a freakin labor relations man for our freakin union telling me there is nothing they can do with management bullying their workers. Well, maybe that is why one man went after his supervisor with his car, and hit him, and then had a machete in the front seat to finish the job! I so have to get off this subject right now. My temper may do me in yet.

For the personal and spiritual war front, these both kind of fit together. I don't go out of my way to judge anyone, or put bad labels on folks, well.... unless they deserve it. Guess what I am trying to say is that I am a spiritual being, yep even have a religion. But I don't go around bashing others if they do not believe like I do.

So now I got this guy, that I just looooooove, or is it lust?.....mmmmm, naw, it is love unfortunately, since I would not put up with what I am putting up with for lust. Believe me I KNOW there is better out there.

Opps, off in fantasy land on a few of the ex's I have had, sigh... Back to topic, this guy has a friend who is some sort of preacher, and is just bashing the hell out of my belief. Now I have turned the cheek, tried to be Christian, but this ass will not let up. To ice the whole damn thing, my supposed lover, will not even back this guy out and tell him to leave it alone!!! So now I am looking at him and saying, where the f.... is your loyalty, and love? I am not asking him to take sides, just back this ass up and tell him to drop it. But nooooo. He says that is just how the guy is and that my LOVE does not believe this preacher friend is right either, so we should just let him just blow off steam. In the mean while I am getting red faced from turning my cheek so many times. I tell my "LOVE" to either back me or hit the fucking road. I am sick of no backbone, not being part of a team that we can depend on each other and work together. How sad, since I have known this guy for 22 years, and loved him back then, and poof into my life he walks last year, and now.....

I know suaaaaker. Must be on my forehead.

Well, I am on my 3rd glass of wine. Guess I better stop whinning.....

hmmmm 2/3rd of a pun is ........P U

God, go to sleep MKP

This is White Tiger 4 truth, over and out

Just now realized about the REAL ID?, Global ID, or POLICE State?

Comon folks, everybody is all hot and bothered about this National ID, but the damn thing was made a LAW WAY back in 2005!!!!!

So where have we all been?

In the State of KAOS, since you have to work 2 or more jobs, and pay to have someone else raise your kids, and then let CHINA, freekin' send poison for food for both pets and YES PEOPLE too. (Oh yes, let's not forget about our dishes and toys that they made sure was full of lead too). Yep, and then we are doing a great job of getting ecoli into our produce, since hell....., we have to make a buck ya know. Let those illegals keep coming in and pissing out in the fields while they work, we will pay a lower price right?

I have enclosed the link to make sure you all can read about our new police nation a comin on strong. Don't wait too long now here. Have your weapons in hand, and have a way to grow that food, and survive folks. Teach your youngen's right, wrong, and how to survive.

MKP, the white tiger 4 truth

PS Just click the link in my title and read!

PSS The colleges have already started the process of assigning the global ID numbers. Just no body is payin' any attention. Once assigned the number the IT department compares it to an already assigned number we have. YEP, Everyone of us has been numbered, but it ain't no social security number either.

Here is another link to prove my point!

http://www.it.cmich.edu/faq/faq_globalid.asp