Tuesday, March 4, 2008

3 front personal war

My job, my job, my freakin' job. I just told my, (not sure what to call him), that I cannot have a war going on, on 3 fronts. Professionally and Personally and Spiritually. Now for the Professional one, I just want to hurt the bitch in charge, and the director that is trying to destroy me. Literally, I am looking at a major lawsuit against a large, very large state entity. I know I may not win, but hell, I have nothing more to lose. They are doing studies to try and find out how to decrease work violence!!!!! Well, I could have saved them some money, just treat people like people. I have a freakin labor relations man for our freakin union telling me there is nothing they can do with management bullying their workers. Well, maybe that is why one man went after his supervisor with his car, and hit him, and then had a machete in the front seat to finish the job! I so have to get off this subject right now. My temper may do me in yet.

For the personal and spiritual war front, these both kind of fit together. I don't go out of my way to judge anyone, or put bad labels on folks, well.... unless they deserve it. Guess what I am trying to say is that I am a spiritual being, yep even have a religion. But I don't go around bashing others if they do not believe like I do.

So now I got this guy, that I just looooooove, or is it lust?.....mmmmm, naw, it is love unfortunately, since I would not put up with what I am putting up with for lust. Believe me I KNOW there is better out there.

Opps, off in fantasy land on a few of the ex's I have had, sigh... Back to topic, this guy has a friend who is some sort of preacher, and is just bashing the hell out of my belief. Now I have turned the cheek, tried to be Christian, but this ass will not let up. To ice the whole damn thing, my supposed lover, will not even back this guy out and tell him to leave it alone!!! So now I am looking at him and saying, where the f.... is your loyalty, and love? I am not asking him to take sides, just back this ass up and tell him to drop it. But nooooo. He says that is just how the guy is and that my LOVE does not believe this preacher friend is right either, so we should just let him just blow off steam. In the mean while I am getting red faced from turning my cheek so many times. I tell my "LOVE" to either back me or hit the fucking road. I am sick of no backbone, not being part of a team that we can depend on each other and work together. How sad, since I have known this guy for 22 years, and loved him back then, and poof into my life he walks last year, and now.....

I know suaaaaker. Must be on my forehead.

Well, I am on my 3rd glass of wine. Guess I better stop whinning.....

hmmmm 2/3rd of a pun is ........P U

God, go to sleep MKP

This is White Tiger 4 truth, over and out



1 comment:

magz said...

Aww Sis, yer spewing, huh. (MENTAL stuff only: a wee bit of wine won't make us pro-types spew, whew)

I hear (read?) ya, and empathize on both counts. Being the ornery ole semi-practical gal I be, I'm opinionated of course! (Got one mostly exxed Sis who swears I have no shades of gray atall on my palette; just black or white)

Job annoys ya? Quit it, since you can probably get another easy, and still continue with a suit if ya deem it worthy of yer time & aggrevation.

Sweetie's Holy-Rolling Pal? euwww, that's a tuffie since there must be SOMETHING at least semi-likeable about him to you.. otherwise you'd just tell yer stud-muffin to visit him without you. If he has any sense O humor atall, invite him to a midnite madness nekkid orgy type heathen coven meeting, and send him on a snipe hunt if he falls for it.
Give him books that diametrically oppose his views if he can read or has even a smidge of openmindedness..
Ignore him? Chortle evilly in his presence? How bout intro-ing him to a wild/wanton Goddess-guided free spirited female friend of your?

(Course, if all else fails, tequila shooters & valium make it muuuch easier to tolerate the intolerable... Hope I made ya crack at least a small grin)
Carry ON Gal, in every meaning of that word! Magz

HA! my word verf here is uttecflk! Utter crap-flock?